Monthly Archives: April 2010
Since Robyn
It’s never “since Robyn’s birth”, “since I had Robyn” or “since Robyn’s death”. It’s always just “since Robyn”. I think everyone waited for me to crack. They all waited for the breakdown, and instead I picked myself up every morning and went out of my way to be okay. They all told me how proud … Continue reading
Snips And Snails…
and puppy dog tails. That’s what my little home is made of. Connor is fast on his way to two years old, and still has yet to talk or walk. He tries, he makes plenty of progress, and then stops and regresses back to where he was. Declan’s psych says not to worry about it … Continue reading
Relief.
I have nothing but good news from the autopsy meeting. They found a very aggressive infection in her lungs from the amniotic fluid. They have no idea where in infection came from, why it sprung up despite the anti-bs and most strangely, why it wasn’t picked up on any of the checks. They took blood … Continue reading
Tick. Tock.
10 hours until Dan and I head into the hospital for my post-natal check up and to discuss the results from Robyn’s autopsy. Dan’s gone to bed early. Me, myself and I don’t tend to make for a very stable mental state. I hate being alone at the best of times, when I’m nervous about … Continue reading
You Ain’t Seen Nothing Yet
For the first couple of years of Declan’s life I was convinced that it would all get easier as time went on. This whole parenting shebang couldn’t be this hard forever, right? It didn’t. In some ways it’s almost getting harder, as he grows I have more expectations of him and I’m more aware as … Continue reading
The Voices Inside My Computer
The internet plays a big part in my life, I met Dan way back when through our respective blogs (although back in the dark ages they were still called “online journals”), most of our family income in generated through our sites and connections we make online, and, as sad as it may seem to most … Continue reading
