Earlier this week as I tucked Declan into bed he looked intently at me and asked:
“Mummy, are you going to have a baby?”
I floundered, my brain did the mental equivalent of rolling over and playing dead whilst I racked my brain for an appropriate answer that he would understand and at the same time wouldn’t cause me to become an emotional wreck.
“Not anytime soon buddy”
“You need to have a baby with Declan!”
“That’s not how it works, Mummies only have babies with Daddies”
“Nope… Daddy is just far too tired for that.”
O.o
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Babies will be soon, August the 19th marks the magical 6 month mark that I was given to wait until I even started trying to get knocked up. I still have to do some tests, and personally I don’t really see it actually happening any time soon as my cycle is completely shot to shit still. I’ve been playing crosshair bingo on fertility friend… you know the one, where you delete various temperatures until they tell you that you’ve ovulated. That’s probably the less scientific way to “take charge” of my fertility, but it makes me feel better and slightly less broken when a stupid website tells me that my uterus isn’t completely b0rked.
I started packing away the size one and size three clothes yesterday. Dan delights in each and every milestone, whereas I just want to squish them up and make little bonsai babies that I can hang on to. How dare they grow up without my permission.
what a sweet picture
Nice calm new layout.
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love the new look blog. Fingers crossed that you ‘catch pregnant’ quickly when you decide to give it a try.
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Thanks guys!
Bonsai babies… yeah. *sigh*
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oh hugs. I’ve just read about the loss of your daughter and it breaks my heart. i hope you’ll be ready to try again. And kids do say the cutest things. yesterday keira told me she wants to marry her brother – we said she can’t do that and she said but I don’t ever want to leave home!